love and pain
Monday, Mar. 31, 2003 :: 10:17 p.m.
love and pain go hand in hand. and i never know which i am experiencing. am i crying for love or for pain? am i slicing up my precious arm for love or for pain? am i tearing everyone out of my life for love or for pain?
love and pain are emotions. i cut for freedom of these emotions.
"there is no future. there is no past. i live each moment as my last." i tried to let myself escape in the emotion. to just feel for once. i hate it. i absolutely abhore it.
so what do you do when your whole world means absolutely nothing? because it all revolves around healing your emotions. and you don't have any? i feel i'm living more by being fake than by being me.
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