drawing on pale skin
Tuesday, Apr. 01, 2003 :: 3:49 p.m.
i drew on my arm yesterday. the places where i wanted to bleed. i pushed hard with that pen so that a red outline would appear around the dark lines on my pale flesh. i wanted to slit my wrist back open. slash of the pen. i saw a star. i slashed it on my arm. and another cut. and one last one. i reoutlined the faded star today. it was made apparent how much i want this pain. i scribbled hard and deep with a lead pencil point. didn't help. wasn't even red. wasn't even noticeable.
the feeling is there. but the release isn't. it's uncurable. it really is.
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