too broken to function
Saturday, Jan. 28, 2006 :: 2:01 a.m.
i let myself need you. like some sick and pathetic puppy dog that needs companionship just to survive. sometimes i wonder if i am anything more than a body and a slut. sometimes i wonder if i truly make anyone happy, or am in fact only looking for ways to make myself more miserable. have i been lying to myself and getting wrapped up in self-loathing, self-destructive behavior again?
there has to be an outlet to all of this. or maybe, finally, a solution. but i'm beginning to give up, give in, and forget everything that has understanding. i have too many scars now. too much emotional pain to ever fully heal and live again like i want to.
last five entries
you say i'm different, but i stay the same - Saturday, Jan. 26, 2008
i open my mouth to scream, but all i make is silence - Wednesday, Mar. 14, 2007
just in case you wondered... - Thursday, Aug. 10, 2006
past present future - Thursday, Jun. 01, 2006
don't just hit delete without reading the content - Tuesday, Jan. 31, 2006
